My bucket-list

I saw this movie some time ago with Jack Nicholson and Morgan Freeman talking about the things they want to do before they die (but they were much closer to death than I think I am :)

So, (not that I think I'm close to dying), I've still been thinking about things I absolutely want to see/do during this lifetime (not that I think there are more than one, but that's another story :)

Anyway, here goes:

I want to... (or should I say, I will do the following?)

see the world's oldest tree

participate in an event where there are more than 100 000 people present

see real live hummingbirds

see dolphins and hear them laugh (or whatever it is they do which sounds like it :)

drive a car with a Ferrari-like motor & sound & speed (Porsche, Maserati, etc will also do)

go para-gliding again

see northern lights somewhere above the Arctic Circle (I've seen them once in Helsinki)

attend/organize AND participate in a masquerade

see the sun set over the Pacific Ocean

see parrots in the jungle

learn to hammer nails without twisting them and /or hitting my thumb or any other finger

go white-water rafting

....

I do have other dreams/wishes/ intentions tugged away in my heart, but the above ones are the sort of do-able ones, mostly requiring organization of resources & some planning. My heart is hiding its more demanding dreams, and some of them still sleep...

I'm exited to think that I might be able to tick some of them maybe even this year... not that I have anything planned, but I do believe that if you do not aim at something, you'll inevitable end up somewhere else ;)

Reading my list, I so sound like an explorer-wanna-be ... but who knows, wishes just might come true :)

what is your bucket-list like?

Cui bono?

I've been thinking a lot about change. All kinds of change. Partly this has been prompted by having met a lot of old friends who say things like 'oh, you haven't changed at all' and the last time we met was years ago.

There are some things about myself I would really like to change, but the outward ones are not on the top of my list. I like to be me, "warts, farts and all" (excuse my expression :) , but there are many inner characteristics and thought patterns I would like to see changed.

It takes so much time, though, that at times I am tempted to believe that real change isn't even possible.

That's why keeping a diary is so helpful... I can track my life and it encourages me to see that in the midst of terrible turmoil, and maybe even because of it, I have actually changed in some aspects. I like to think that I'm more patient, more fearless and less demanding.

Well, maybe I'm not the best judge of that... I need mirrors in my life, people close enough to me to warn me when the change I aim at takes me to wrong directions.

Because as alluring as change might seem when one feels stagnated, the all important question is the same all good detectives ask when solving a murder, Cui bono?

I so hope that my answer to that question would not merely be

Anneli